Trust

Trust has always been an issue with me.  I have trouble trusting boys, friends and sometimes even God. 

Throughout college, I was always working at least one job to make enough money for ends to meet.  I stress over money constantly and I feel that it is always a struggle to get my bills paid let alone have money left over for food and gas.  And on top of that, I need to tithe more. 

I know that the money I have is given through my hard work by God.  I know that the first 10% is supposed to go back to God so that He can do good with it.  But how do I do this and pay bills and have food to eat and gas in my car to get to work so I can make that money??? 

I try to tithe everything I can and God has shown how He can provide through that.  He has helped me so much in my life with my money resources and yet I still feel I don't have the means to give Him everything He deserves.  For example, today I used the last bit of my money to put gas in my car so I could get to church.  And then they start to talk about offering and tithe and I just want to cry because I have nothing to give. 

I am still learning how to trust God with everything, including my finances.  On the radio, they were talking about how fear blocks faith.  It is pretty impossible to live life without any fear but if we can get rid of some the fear, faith will be allowed in our lives.  It is like a see-saw.  So faith and trust go together.  And it will all work out with prayer! I may not be able to give money but I can give my time with prayer and reading!