It has been a little while since my last post and update and there is quite a bit to talk (er, write) about.
The first thing is something that has been on my heart for awhile and has recently popped into my head. My favorite verse is Psalms 37:4 "Delight yourself in the Lord and He will fulfill the desires of your heart." How wonderful is that!!! At first, it sounds kind of selfish making it seem like if you want something, just be joyful with God and you will get it. But I am discovering that is not how it works!! Delight in God is a wonderful feeling. It is laughing with him and at the things He does in life. It is trusting Him with my money and being able to tithe. It is waking up with him and his word. It is feeling the peace in my life through him. I love it!!! I love Him so much!! I have not had such a peace in my life. And I believe it is because I am finally giving God what he wants; my life!!
One of the many awesome things God is doing in my life is Teach For America. This is something that I have put my whole heart into and have had many discussions with God about. It was a big leap of faith to apply and I am now waiting for my final interview. I have made it through the application process and the phone interview. In early March, I will participate in a full day interview process. Every time I start to doubt my ability, I remember who is in charge.
Recently, I have taken another risk within Teach For America. When I first started the application process, I was picking where I wanted to go. I was set on going to places like North Carolina and Colorado. But I realized what and who I am doing this for. To truly give God my life, I need to trust him where he wants to send me. So I have selected to go where I am needed. I was able to choose a couple places that I really didn't want to go, but for the most part I would have to trust God and see where he sends me. It could be anywhere in the United States and I am so excited to see where he sends me to teach his children!!
I have also signed up to volunteer with the elementary students at North Point Church. I have been to several churches in Springfield trying to find one that I love. About 8 months ago, I did!!! North Point is exactly what I have been looking for. I love the music and the atmosphere. I love the way that they accept everyone from all walks of life! It is truly an open place with non-judgemental people. The pastor is real and speaks with such passion and experience from his life. If you are ever in Springfield, you should come to church with me. It is amazing!! I am nervous to leave the church if I end up moving somewhere, but I know that God will help me in the search again.
Please pray for me. Pray that I continue to find Delight in God and send thoughts and confidence my way for the interview.
I pray that you find Delight in God and learn to trust Him!!!
I love you!
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Sunday, January 9, 2011
Trust
Trust has always been an issue with me. I have trouble trusting boys, friends and sometimes even God.
Throughout college, I was always working at least one job to make enough money for ends to meet. I stress over money constantly and I feel that it is always a struggle to get my bills paid let alone have money left over for food and gas. And on top of that, I need to tithe more.
I know that the money I have is given through my hard work by God. I know that the first 10% is supposed to go back to God so that He can do good with it. But how do I do this and pay bills and have food to eat and gas in my car to get to work so I can make that money???
I try to tithe everything I can and God has shown how He can provide through that. He has helped me so much in my life with my money resources and yet I still feel I don't have the means to give Him everything He deserves. For example, today I used the last bit of my money to put gas in my car so I could get to church. And then they start to talk about offering and tithe and I just want to cry because I have nothing to give.
I am still learning how to trust God with everything, including my finances. On the radio, they were talking about how fear blocks faith. It is pretty impossible to live life without any fear but if we can get rid of some the fear, faith will be allowed in our lives. It is like a see-saw. So faith and trust go together. And it will all work out with prayer! I may not be able to give money but I can give my time with prayer and reading!
Throughout college, I was always working at least one job to make enough money for ends to meet. I stress over money constantly and I feel that it is always a struggle to get my bills paid let alone have money left over for food and gas. And on top of that, I need to tithe more.
I know that the money I have is given through my hard work by God. I know that the first 10% is supposed to go back to God so that He can do good with it. But how do I do this and pay bills and have food to eat and gas in my car to get to work so I can make that money???
I try to tithe everything I can and God has shown how He can provide through that. He has helped me so much in my life with my money resources and yet I still feel I don't have the means to give Him everything He deserves. For example, today I used the last bit of my money to put gas in my car so I could get to church. And then they start to talk about offering and tithe and I just want to cry because I have nothing to give.
I am still learning how to trust God with everything, including my finances. On the radio, they were talking about how fear blocks faith. It is pretty impossible to live life without any fear but if we can get rid of some the fear, faith will be allowed in our lives. It is like a see-saw. So faith and trust go together. And it will all work out with prayer! I may not be able to give money but I can give my time with prayer and reading!
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
God is great and people surprise me
God is continuously showing me just how great he is. I know that he has been working in my life lately and keeps on blessing me.
Anytime I start to stress about money, I end up with more than enough to cover my bills. I started to really trust him with my money a couple of months ago while I was at church. The message was about giving God what is his first and then using the rest to pay whatever is needed. This came at a time when I was very low on money but I understood the point and the reason why you are to tithe. The next week, I gave God what I could. I was so nervous to do this so I just prayed. I had to take a leap of faith and believe that He would take care of me. That next week, I was given 10 times as much from my dad. How awesome is that! God keeps on doing little things in my life and I feel so blessed.
Tonight at work, I found out some terrible news about a coworker. Her house burnt down a few days ago and she lost all her pets inside. This is a lady that doesn't have much to start with and it just broke my heart. I have always been a person who could physically feel what others are going through and it wasn't good. I couldn't imagine going through what she is having to deal with now. Right when she told me this, I started praying. Right there at the fitting room desk in Target. Haha. I just wanted her to feel comforted and cared for. Later on, I heard of all the help she has been getting from people. Coworkers and giving her food and her neighbors are caring for her. Even Starbucks gave her coffee just so she could get through her day. I love to hear about the good people in our world today. The people who aren't selfish and see a person who is truly needing help. While I was eating lunch with this coworker today, another coworker came in and dropped some money in front of her. At that moment I could feel what she was feeling. She was feeling blessed. It is such a great feeling. Now that I am thinking about it, I wonder if this was a sign of comfort from God. So amazing!
With all of the crap going on in this world today, it is helpful to hear about the good people. The people who realize that there are other people on this Earth. Those that put others first. I strive to be one of these people and fail miserable at times. But I am working on this.
I hope that this amazed you like it did me, and if not, that is fine too. Please pray for my coworker. Please join with me to pray that she continues to feel comfort from those around her and that she is able to get everything worked out.
God is good!
Anytime I start to stress about money, I end up with more than enough to cover my bills. I started to really trust him with my money a couple of months ago while I was at church. The message was about giving God what is his first and then using the rest to pay whatever is needed. This came at a time when I was very low on money but I understood the point and the reason why you are to tithe. The next week, I gave God what I could. I was so nervous to do this so I just prayed. I had to take a leap of faith and believe that He would take care of me. That next week, I was given 10 times as much from my dad. How awesome is that! God keeps on doing little things in my life and I feel so blessed.
Tonight at work, I found out some terrible news about a coworker. Her house burnt down a few days ago and she lost all her pets inside. This is a lady that doesn't have much to start with and it just broke my heart. I have always been a person who could physically feel what others are going through and it wasn't good. I couldn't imagine going through what she is having to deal with now. Right when she told me this, I started praying. Right there at the fitting room desk in Target. Haha. I just wanted her to feel comforted and cared for. Later on, I heard of all the help she has been getting from people. Coworkers and giving her food and her neighbors are caring for her. Even Starbucks gave her coffee just so she could get through her day. I love to hear about the good people in our world today. The people who aren't selfish and see a person who is truly needing help. While I was eating lunch with this coworker today, another coworker came in and dropped some money in front of her. At that moment I could feel what she was feeling. She was feeling blessed. It is such a great feeling. Now that I am thinking about it, I wonder if this was a sign of comfort from God. So amazing!
With all of the crap going on in this world today, it is helpful to hear about the good people. The people who realize that there are other people on this Earth. Those that put others first. I strive to be one of these people and fail miserable at times. But I am working on this.
I hope that this amazed you like it did me, and if not, that is fine too. Please pray for my coworker. Please join with me to pray that she continues to feel comfort from those around her and that she is able to get everything worked out.
God is good!
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Meet Chelsea
It is January 2, 2011! Happy New Year everyone! I have such a wonderful feeling and outlook to this new year. I have no idea what will happen and that is very intriguing.
I am normally a very paranoid and slightly OCD girl who loves to have everything planned out well in advance. But lately, I have been giving everything to God. I have had a relationship with God as long as I can remember and it sure has been a journey. He has stuck with me when I wasn't making the best decisions and sort of put him on the back burner. I was trying to do things my own way and obviously that wasn't working out anymore. After my last relationship, I finally realized that God is ultimately always in control, no matter what I do. And life would just make sense if I let Him guide me and use me for His purpose.
The biggest leap of faith that I have ever taken is applying for Teach for America. God created me to be a teacher and has given me such a passion for children. I had always thought about becoming a member of Teach for America but while in my relationship, I didn't want to move somewhere far away for 2 years. Now, I do not have those ties holding me back. I am now a single girl that just graduated with an elementary education degree. And God is tugging at my heart!
I do not know the plans He has for my life but I am learning to trust him. This will be a blog about what He is doing in my life. If you are interested, then follow! And maybe it will inspire you to figure out who you are to become!
Please pray for me! I always need it!
I am normally a very paranoid and slightly OCD girl who loves to have everything planned out well in advance. But lately, I have been giving everything to God. I have had a relationship with God as long as I can remember and it sure has been a journey. He has stuck with me when I wasn't making the best decisions and sort of put him on the back burner. I was trying to do things my own way and obviously that wasn't working out anymore. After my last relationship, I finally realized that God is ultimately always in control, no matter what I do. And life would just make sense if I let Him guide me and use me for His purpose.
The biggest leap of faith that I have ever taken is applying for Teach for America. God created me to be a teacher and has given me such a passion for children. I had always thought about becoming a member of Teach for America but while in my relationship, I didn't want to move somewhere far away for 2 years. Now, I do not have those ties holding me back. I am now a single girl that just graduated with an elementary education degree. And God is tugging at my heart!
I do not know the plans He has for my life but I am learning to trust him. This will be a blog about what He is doing in my life. If you are interested, then follow! And maybe it will inspire you to figure out who you are to become!
Please pray for me! I always need it!
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