Trust has always been an issue with me. I have trouble trusting boys, friends and sometimes even God.
Throughout college, I was always working at least one job to make enough money for ends to meet. I stress over money constantly and I feel that it is always a struggle to get my bills paid let alone have money left over for food and gas. And on top of that, I need to tithe more.
I know that the money I have is given through my hard work by God. I know that the first 10% is supposed to go back to God so that He can do good with it. But how do I do this and pay bills and have food to eat and gas in my car to get to work so I can make that money???
I try to tithe everything I can and God has shown how He can provide through that. He has helped me so much in my life with my money resources and yet I still feel I don't have the means to give Him everything He deserves. For example, today I used the last bit of my money to put gas in my car so I could get to church. And then they start to talk about offering and tithe and I just want to cry because I have nothing to give.
I am still learning how to trust God with everything, including my finances. On the radio, they were talking about how fear blocks faith. It is pretty impossible to live life without any fear but if we can get rid of some the fear, faith will be allowed in our lives. It is like a see-saw. So faith and trust go together. And it will all work out with prayer! I may not be able to give money but I can give my time with prayer and reading!
Sunday, January 9, 2011
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
God is great and people surprise me
God is continuously showing me just how great he is. I know that he has been working in my life lately and keeps on blessing me.
Anytime I start to stress about money, I end up with more than enough to cover my bills. I started to really trust him with my money a couple of months ago while I was at church. The message was about giving God what is his first and then using the rest to pay whatever is needed. This came at a time when I was very low on money but I understood the point and the reason why you are to tithe. The next week, I gave God what I could. I was so nervous to do this so I just prayed. I had to take a leap of faith and believe that He would take care of me. That next week, I was given 10 times as much from my dad. How awesome is that! God keeps on doing little things in my life and I feel so blessed.
Tonight at work, I found out some terrible news about a coworker. Her house burnt down a few days ago and she lost all her pets inside. This is a lady that doesn't have much to start with and it just broke my heart. I have always been a person who could physically feel what others are going through and it wasn't good. I couldn't imagine going through what she is having to deal with now. Right when she told me this, I started praying. Right there at the fitting room desk in Target. Haha. I just wanted her to feel comforted and cared for. Later on, I heard of all the help she has been getting from people. Coworkers and giving her food and her neighbors are caring for her. Even Starbucks gave her coffee just so she could get through her day. I love to hear about the good people in our world today. The people who aren't selfish and see a person who is truly needing help. While I was eating lunch with this coworker today, another coworker came in and dropped some money in front of her. At that moment I could feel what she was feeling. She was feeling blessed. It is such a great feeling. Now that I am thinking about it, I wonder if this was a sign of comfort from God. So amazing!
With all of the crap going on in this world today, it is helpful to hear about the good people. The people who realize that there are other people on this Earth. Those that put others first. I strive to be one of these people and fail miserable at times. But I am working on this.
I hope that this amazed you like it did me, and if not, that is fine too. Please pray for my coworker. Please join with me to pray that she continues to feel comfort from those around her and that she is able to get everything worked out.
God is good!
Anytime I start to stress about money, I end up with more than enough to cover my bills. I started to really trust him with my money a couple of months ago while I was at church. The message was about giving God what is his first and then using the rest to pay whatever is needed. This came at a time when I was very low on money but I understood the point and the reason why you are to tithe. The next week, I gave God what I could. I was so nervous to do this so I just prayed. I had to take a leap of faith and believe that He would take care of me. That next week, I was given 10 times as much from my dad. How awesome is that! God keeps on doing little things in my life and I feel so blessed.
Tonight at work, I found out some terrible news about a coworker. Her house burnt down a few days ago and she lost all her pets inside. This is a lady that doesn't have much to start with and it just broke my heart. I have always been a person who could physically feel what others are going through and it wasn't good. I couldn't imagine going through what she is having to deal with now. Right when she told me this, I started praying. Right there at the fitting room desk in Target. Haha. I just wanted her to feel comforted and cared for. Later on, I heard of all the help she has been getting from people. Coworkers and giving her food and her neighbors are caring for her. Even Starbucks gave her coffee just so she could get through her day. I love to hear about the good people in our world today. The people who aren't selfish and see a person who is truly needing help. While I was eating lunch with this coworker today, another coworker came in and dropped some money in front of her. At that moment I could feel what she was feeling. She was feeling blessed. It is such a great feeling. Now that I am thinking about it, I wonder if this was a sign of comfort from God. So amazing!
With all of the crap going on in this world today, it is helpful to hear about the good people. The people who realize that there are other people on this Earth. Those that put others first. I strive to be one of these people and fail miserable at times. But I am working on this.
I hope that this amazed you like it did me, and if not, that is fine too. Please pray for my coworker. Please join with me to pray that she continues to feel comfort from those around her and that she is able to get everything worked out.
God is good!
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Meet Chelsea
It is January 2, 2011! Happy New Year everyone! I have such a wonderful feeling and outlook to this new year. I have no idea what will happen and that is very intriguing.
I am normally a very paranoid and slightly OCD girl who loves to have everything planned out well in advance. But lately, I have been giving everything to God. I have had a relationship with God as long as I can remember and it sure has been a journey. He has stuck with me when I wasn't making the best decisions and sort of put him on the back burner. I was trying to do things my own way and obviously that wasn't working out anymore. After my last relationship, I finally realized that God is ultimately always in control, no matter what I do. And life would just make sense if I let Him guide me and use me for His purpose.
The biggest leap of faith that I have ever taken is applying for Teach for America. God created me to be a teacher and has given me such a passion for children. I had always thought about becoming a member of Teach for America but while in my relationship, I didn't want to move somewhere far away for 2 years. Now, I do not have those ties holding me back. I am now a single girl that just graduated with an elementary education degree. And God is tugging at my heart!
I do not know the plans He has for my life but I am learning to trust him. This will be a blog about what He is doing in my life. If you are interested, then follow! And maybe it will inspire you to figure out who you are to become!
Please pray for me! I always need it!
I am normally a very paranoid and slightly OCD girl who loves to have everything planned out well in advance. But lately, I have been giving everything to God. I have had a relationship with God as long as I can remember and it sure has been a journey. He has stuck with me when I wasn't making the best decisions and sort of put him on the back burner. I was trying to do things my own way and obviously that wasn't working out anymore. After my last relationship, I finally realized that God is ultimately always in control, no matter what I do. And life would just make sense if I let Him guide me and use me for His purpose.
The biggest leap of faith that I have ever taken is applying for Teach for America. God created me to be a teacher and has given me such a passion for children. I had always thought about becoming a member of Teach for America but while in my relationship, I didn't want to move somewhere far away for 2 years. Now, I do not have those ties holding me back. I am now a single girl that just graduated with an elementary education degree. And God is tugging at my heart!
I do not know the plans He has for my life but I am learning to trust him. This will be a blog about what He is doing in my life. If you are interested, then follow! And maybe it will inspire you to figure out who you are to become!
Please pray for me! I always need it!
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)